| Location | Newcastle Upon Tyne |
| Age | 16 years |
| Date of Birth | 10/1988 |
| Date of Death | 3/2005 |
| Visitors | 3,729 since 07/01/2007 |
| Creator |
My son Adam took his own life March 7th 2005 he was 16 years old. We have no idea why he did this,
he seemed happy to his friends, he seemed happy to me when I saw him the night before he did it. He
was living with his dad because the previous year, he had started to experiment in drugs, and I was
no longer able to cope with him. It did appear however, that he was starting to get his life back
on track again; he was attending school again and catching up on his work.
I don’t know if I could have helped Adam anymore than I had tried to, but I can’t help but think
there may have been something more that I could have done to change the outcome. I wish that I
could turn back time; I wish that I would have asked him to come back home to live with me Sunday
night. It's like a living nightmare, I am up and down all the time, I keep asking myself
"what if" and "if only" and "why".
There is no going back from this one, I have no idea what to do, to be honest, sometimes, I just
feel like I can’t go on anymore.
The pain and devastation of losing a child is indescribable. Our children shouldn’t go first,
we’ve lived our lives and now it’s their turn to live theirs; all we can do as parents is hope
that we did our best for them. Nobody fully recovers from the death of a child: they adjust to it
as best as they can.
Adam used to love to tease his sisters when they were little; he always had a cheeky grin. He loved
his music, although sometimes he loved it a little too loud and a little too early in the morning.
He loved swimming, something we used to do regularly together when he was a small boy. He loved
being with his friends, and seemed like he was a popular young man.
Adam was only 16, so young, and had his whole life ahead of him, he had so much going for him, he
was a bright cheery lad and a good-looking young man and had great potential.
Gone are the things that we could have done together, gone are the plans he was making, the plans he
was telling me about with excitement on that Sunday evening before he left us. Gone are the things
he could have done, achievements he could have made, Adam’s gone.
To my dearest darling son Adam.
Thank you for the special times we spent together, particularly that mother’s day, the day before
you left my life forever. I will always feel the hug you gave me and your smile will stay with me
forever. I love you Adam.
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Forever 16
21 is a very important birthday for anyone, it's the birthday that shows the world that you are a fully grown adult, something that I will never see in you Adam. I often wonder how you would look and how you would be spending your life if you were 21, it hurts to know that I'll never see it in you.
Forever 16 to me, love always and forever in my heart
Love Mum
hi adam thought id leave a tribute 2day just 2 say happy 21st birthday nd let u no ur neva far from my thought miss u loads x x
When you feel most, that I am not here, you are not listening, for I am near,
Through your tears, I see your pain, But I have no fear, because heaven I have gained.
When you sleep, I kiss your cheek, because I know in your dreams, it is me you seek,
So do not wonder, where I am,
I am now in heaven, holding God's hand.
And just a breath away from you .....
hey Adam,
alreet stranger??? hows t big man treatin ya up there, good i hope!! lol
anyways aye, jus wanna say ya'l b missed by me, me, dad n kathryn!! even tho kaths a little nob now lol!!! but still love a!
remember playin risk on ya mams dining room table? when kathryn lost and started throwing a strop lol!!! u couldnt stop laughin and rubbin it in her face!!! good times! we were only like 10!! haha
miss ya
c ya mate :)
Michael
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16TH DECEMBER 2008
♥ SENDING CHRISTMAS WISHES WITH CHRISTMAS KISSES. ♥
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LOTS OF LOVE JUDE.X
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** Tranquil Thoughts **
Through the gentle breeze and the stormy seas
Your love comes flooding through
A sense of your surroundings
Letting us know that it is you
A heavenly sky with sparkling flames
Becomes visible in the skies
Appearing is your shadows
As you turned to wave goodbye
A mellow whisper in my ear
Thanking all for whats been done
And letting us know that youre ok
As you glide towards the sun
No matter what the outcome
No matter how much we cried
You're letting us know that your still here
It was only the body that died
For your memory holds no boundaries
Everyday it is kept alive
Its gives us warmth and energy
That encourages our days to thrive
Just keep on remembering me
In your shadows I'll walk with you
And guide you through your darkest hours
In everything you say or do
For absence cannot be changed for us
We accept what had to be done
We cannot change the wishes of God
If he wants you to be the one
When you reach the golden promised land
And the gates are open wide
It will be there you'll find great comfort
And your tears you'll try to hide
As you settle in your new found world
You'll send us a glittering prize
It will brighten up the darkest day
And bring a tear to our eyes
Thank you for your presence
And for all the memories too
You left this world something beautiful
It was the fact that we had you.
THE BRIGHTEST STAR
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Always in my thoughts
Happy 20th Birthday
What a lovely tribute Thomas, thank you. You two did have some fun times didn't you? We were very sorry to have to leave the house near your street, but we had no choice, it was a very sad time for all of us, but not as sad as the day we lost Adam forever.
Today is Adam's 20th birthday, I wonder what he would have been like if he had still been around. It hurts not having the opportunity to find out.
I'm very happy to know that you are still thinking of Adam, he's in my thoughts every single minute of every day in my life.
Take Care
Love Adam's Mum Forever and Always
Hi adam how are you doing up there?? Was talking to a friend the other day about what we got up to in monkhouse - was thinking about the time we decided it'd be a good idea to spray your front garden with deodorant and it made all the grass go yellow lol
or the time we lost amandas mouse under the sofa - never to be seen again!
and the hours we spent playing that james bond game with your sisters (we always won of course)
And the time you had that sleep over for your birthday and we kept your mam up all night (sorry Denise!)
Fun times... Will keep in touch mate, look after yourself up there and keep an eye on your mum down here, i know it means a lot to her.
Love tom.
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